DEM GYALS

Motherhood has opened me to a lot of emotions, and has forced me to grow up. When i was pregnant for my first i was still a child, then i got to understand that age is definitely a number. It wasn't until i put to bed that i began to grow up. Through out the pregnancy i experienced different emotions that i didn't know i had but yet i didn't understand it. I longed to care for someone and help people. Towards the end of my 40weeks i was eager to meet my baby but she wasn't in a hurry. I was forced to start taking long walks in the cold, but still she wont move. She was comfortable and i was uncomfortable. She acted like the landlord that owned my body and i felt like putting my hands in and yanking her out Literally (Don't imagine it because its sick). My body was tired but my baby wasn't.

When we finally decided to force her out, i thought i was ready to meet her but the doctors had other plans for me. When the pain struck me, i actually asked the midwife if they can push back. I asked her to ask the doctor to stop the labour, LMAO, it wasnt funny.

When my baby came and i was asked to hold her i refused, i said they should give her to her daddy. I was put to sleep and later wheeled to recovery. Immediately i woke up i asked for my baby. The moment i held her i couldn't let her go. I hold her and she sleeps, she lies on my stomach and chest when she is feeling off so that she can sleep. I smack when she has done something wrong or when she is insisting on something she shouldn't, in the midst of her screaming and crying she will cry MUUUUUUUUUUUMMMMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYY. Everytime she does this it melts my heart and i hold her close to me and comfort her. This emotions i have never felt before. When she gives me a peck especially when she thinks i am sad, when she pats my head my chest fills with pride and love.

My second angel; after the stress of labour, i wouldn't hold her or so i thought but i know i held her until i was put to sleep. I havee never stopped holding her. People say she doesn't smile, that correct because her smiles are reserved for the people she loves dearly. When ever she smiles, she lights up my world, she can melt my worries away with her smile. When her elder sister pecks her, she looks at her and smiles. So many other emotions i can't put to words but i see them everyday.

It is just a few DAYS since i  got married, but the JOYS OF MOTHERHOOD i feel, i love. Now i understand why the sweetest love songs are the ones sang to the children. This is because all the emotions present can cause a blast.